My Silence

I try to find the words that we all are afraid to say.
I understand what isn’t said,
And that makes me distinct among different people. 
I confide in others,
Who only confide our confidence with everyone else.
So I choose to stay silent.

Silence.
The passion,
The pain,
The anguish you bring.
My wisdom is here but it stays in me.
I can’t say what I wish,
For the fear of it being heard.
For everyone to know the real me,
Even if I don’t utter a single word.

Silence.
The confusion you cause,
The way I don’t talk,
Points out all my flaws.

Silence.
The questions you flare,
The rumours you start,
The rumours you bear.

My silence is my weakness,
I’m the only one who knows that.
That is, until I break and end up confiding in private.
Confiding in private what soon will be broadcasted to everyone.

My Silence. Still silent.

The Song that Plays Inside My Heart

Every morning it awakens me
A soothing tune with every beat
It does not change, it stays the same
A sweet melody on repeat
I open my eyes and it gives me drive
It fuels my fire as I strive
It’s a sound of comfort and security
A feeling of love surrounding me
It gave me strength when I was weak
The volume increased, the lyrics speak
It took me a while to figure it out
But now I know what it’s all about
I open my heart and I take heed
I let the tune guide and lead
It keeps me warm when the world gets cold
My shelter, my shield from things untold
It never gets old or skips a beat
It lifts my spirits and makes me complete
It is how everyday ends and how every day starts
With “The Song that Plays Inside My Heart”

Life Sucks!

When I got enough confidence,
The stage was gone.
When I was sure of losing,
I won!
When I needed some people the most,
They left me.
When I learnt to hide my tears,
I found a shoulder to cry on.
When I was busy,
I got friends.
When  I mastered the skill of hating,
Somebody started loving me.
When I started loving,
Somebody mastered in “hating” me.
After waiting for dawn,
I fell asleep..
and the sun came out.
That’s Life
and at times
it can suck!

Raindrops

Raindrops dancing on warm pavement
Creating flowing veins into crystal clear rivers
Diamond dots splashing decks changing color patterns
Choreographing intricate dance steps to nature’s beat

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Raindrops in passionate love affairs with thirsty leaves
Smothering with gentle caresses and cool kisses
Cloaking them in clothes of welcoming moisture
Changing their colors to a more vibrant green

~*~

Raindrops chasing birds and insects for cover
Chipmunks scurrying for cover in dark holes
Flowers greedily opening petals for wet kisses
Rocks sensually shedding their dusk cloaks

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Raindrops fall in changing patterns in harmony
With a gentle rolling warm breeze
Swaying trees becoming more intimately acquainted
Bringing a new cleanliness and feeling of rebirth

Words

Inspiration comes like a whispering wind,

I cannot catch it nor can I send,

Urging me to write to an unknown end,

Not just words to follow a trend,

But words of meaning do I extend,

To edify the body not to pretend,

Seeking a message is what I do,

Because without one it is not through,

Better to be silent than to speak without

Cause,

So choose words wisely and to foolishness 

Give pause. 

Wide Awake!

Alone…
Alone I sit…
Alone I breathe…
Eat, sleep, seethe, and dream.
Can’t shake this feeling of loneliness
This cold isolation of emptiness.
Step out from this hole i call home
Where society looks estranged.
People everywhere, yet still I feel alone
Cut off from this place.
Alone again I sit in silence and solitude,
Able to breathe once more.
I lie awake with echoes of music in the air.
Thinking about my life and what went wrong,
But I still have yet to find the answer.
Slowly my eyes begin to close..
As I fall into another world
Dreams oh dreams!
How so you comfort me
And torture me all the same…
But in the end I will always find
That I am wide awake.